Lost Him

It been a while since I wrote something in here, I was looking over my old post and I could tell I haven’t really change as much as I thought I would. So much thing has happen since my last post, me and tony broke up. Mostly was because of me, I am still the same guy since I was many years ago. I am trying so hard this time so I could change the way I am. I am doing my best but I feel like is not a lot but I guess change take time. I miss tony a lot and I feel like I really lost him this time and I can’t do anything about it, it hurts a lot. This happens when I keep everything to myself and keep secrets. I really want to change the way I am, I want to grow up but I don’t think I could do it. I really didn’t saw this coming…